010000100111001001101111011010110110010101101110 → Broken

0100100001100101011000010111001001110100  →  Heart …

some F.Y.I.:  Difference between Capital binary Broken vs lower case binary broken and Capital binary Heart vs lower case binary heart Binary Code!  For those 1337 g33ks out there… enjoy… others am sure are “shaking their heads!”  lol   remember, it takes many kinds to make the world, otherwise it sure would be booO.Oooring!
011000100111001001101111011010110110010101101110 – broken
0110100001100101011000010111001001110100 - heart

At 6:50 ish this A.M. trying to go to sleep I was thinking… how simple animals and computers are. 1 0 or  I O is the standard binary code that makes up computers and “programming” nowadays is more “fancy” but the “root” of it is… Binary (bi-na-ry = noun; 15th century;: something made of or based on two things or parts as a: Binary Star b: a binary number system). Animals, much like computers are simple, input = output, but their love is unconditional, especially dogs, I have seen it… you can beat a dog sensless (not recommended, abhor unnecessary violence on ANY living creature) and the dog will go back to his “master” waggin his tail and ready to give love and receive it.  Some dogs will only take so much and turn on “said” master, and the master will get his “cum-uppins!”  what you sow, so shall yea reap!  Unfortantely, more often than not the dog will succumb to death or dropped off out in the “wild” and will become hunted or a hunter.  “Real Life” sucks at times… but back to my “point” animals sense who is a “pet person” and who is not, and they respond also to “necessity” and/or “needs.”  Instinctively I have seen a dog handle very gently an elderly person near her death bed and “give” her a warm smile through her touch and allowing her to stroke her.  Speaking of my beloved Jenna and my beloved departed Grandma Ceil.

Grandma got to where she responded only to Jenna and smiled and “woke-up” to pet her.  Jenna in return, brought herself under Grandma’s hand so she could “pet” her.  She stood there for as long as Grandma needed, and just as Grandma tired, she lowered herself and Dad and I helped Grandma settle back in her chair.  Everyone in the room had a tear rolling down their face.   Jenna was special like that, and at the time did not know that she was a Reiki dog.  Lol, being an Akita, go figure!  So the “na-sayers” that say dogs do not “realize” or “reason” well… guess what, like there are many “arsie” holes out there, there are as many opinions!  So animals “get it” and so do electronic components, especially computers… and I can relate to them very well.  Even insects!  Yep am a cricket whisperer!   Or Dr.Doolittle of the insect world and some animals.  Or so my niece has called me. 

One nite while she was staying with us, she witnessed it firsthand.  The kids had told her that I was talking to a cricket that had adopted our family and she scoffed at them.  So she was spending time with “Aunty J” on a sleep over and got to see it.  Let’s back up a bit.  A cricket had gotten stuck in my kids room and had been chirping for a couple of days, well “Sissy”  (Kat, my daughter) is not a “jumping bug person) and was sleeping with Mom until it left.  Well I could not find it to catch it and put it outside.  After two days of tears, from the kidd, and listening to their beautiful music, I decided for my daughter’s sanity to try to find this cricket.  So when he started chripping I snuck into their room and soflty cooed to the cricket and told him if he would hop out to the living room I would catch him gently and release him so he could enjoy outside and play his music out there.  Later that night after the kids had gone to bed and I was relaxing, I saw movement… yep the cricket hopped out to the middle of the living room floor and did a lil chirp.  I was blown away.  So I told him to stay still while I got a container, and he did. I put the container over him, gently slid him over paper, opened the front door and let him hop out on the grass.  As I shut the door, he started playing his music.  When I caught him I noticed he was black and a good size, which I learned later he is an “older” cricket, so he got named “Grandpa Cricket” lol.  So “Sissy” was able to return to her bed the following evening upon a through investigation of the room and me telling her of the “encounter,” and with me promising to stay in the room till she fell asleep.  lol,   A few days later, he returned!  No joke! After I had put the kids down I saw movement again, he chirped at me…. I let him chirp for a bit, he stopped so I scooped him and put him out.  This happened on a regular basis over the summer.  And a tiny cricket had gotten stuck in the house and… yep it went to the middle of the floor, chirped once, and he was released outside after i caught the lil one.
Now… back to my neice, she had asked me if I talked to animals, and I said, well of course… I have always talked to them, they listen, and for the most part don’t “back talk”… she giggled and said, “Nawww, you know like Dr. Doolittle Auntie, talk to them and they understand?”  I chuckled and asked her why she was asking me this? She told me about the kids talking about Grandpa Cricket and the “story” they had told her and she wanted to know if it was true…. lol as if right on cue, sure enough Grandpa Cricket hopped out into the middle of the living room floor, chirped, and her mouth dropped open!  I giggled and gave a salutation to Grandpa Cricket… told him to be still… went and got a container, caught him… she excitedly asked if she could release him outside, so I let her… and well… it was a fun night with “Aunty J!”  she did not question me after that, nor did she question my kids! 

lol… so anywhoosen, since that time I have talked to other animals and insects and whether its vibrations, tones or what, we communicate.  I had to get over my fear of Praying Mantis… they really used to creep me out! But they are wonderful creatures and will “take you on, man”  they can do it… lol, the have the “little dog” syndrome!  But they are wonderful natural garden insect pesticide mini generals, and also had to get past spiders… as well, realized that I have spider medicine in me… thanks to a couple of friends pointing that out to me.  So unless I get the “danger sense” they live to do their thing and help remind me of “things.”  They do have their place.  Even snakes… another fear had to get past… but that is another story, the spiders and snakes!  lol, that is a song!  Ahaahaahahahahaa!  *grins*

So… why all this blathering, last night was rough with my sis-in-law, (going to call her Rose okay, for she is a lovely flower! :)) so Rose did not have a good night.  Her pain meds are getting low, and she will not see a primary doctor until Monday(7.12.10), and hopefully this one will take her on.  Until then some of her “controlled” substances cannot be refilled until she is established here.  Because of the seizures “healing” is taking a bit more time and her pain level, well what they gave her in the 2nd of July, she “ate” through that already, and we were in “reserves.”  The “reserves” are at a lower dose, so she started eating through those quickly and in “counting” to see if she would make it to Monday… at the rate she is going right now, the meds would run out Saturday/Sunday in the A.M. hours… so we discussed and plotted out to try to manage her pain, and stretch the meds till Monday before her appointment.  Thursday/Friday night/a.m. was not too bad, she woke up but went back to bed.  I did have extra strength pain otc ready for her, but she whisked back to bed before I could intercept her.  Last night/a.m. was a different story.  She woke up around 1:30 a.m., gave her a choice of pain reliever, which had a couple of her Rx pain med with extra strength otc  (otc = over the counter)  so she took that and a muscle relaxer (part of her med schedule) and hopefully that would tide her over till “Mom’s” shift, which starts around 6-7:00a.m.  at 3:40a.m. she was up in pain and the only thing I could offer her was extra strength otc!  My heart broke for her… I was thinking about packing it in hoping she might be able to work through the pain and I fell asleep trying to shut down my computer!  She woke me up around 6:30a.m. ish in bad shape… mom too had stirred, so went ahead and gave her pain meds…  I wanted to burst into tears, then I decided after I had had some sleep that we would re-talk this over and just go with the “regular” schedule and when it runs out take her to E.R. hopefully priory to a seizure as these meds were part of her seizure problem. 

So as I laid in bed trying to get at least a couple of hours sleep… to clear my head, I struck me… computers and animals are similar, simple and we relate and “get each other” all so well… lol go figure why doing programming and why Reiki, I am, am I, found its way into my life.  It is simple pure and it gets to the core of the issue(s) or problem(s) and flows freely and unconditionally for any one that wants its healing touch. Course, like with my kids, when then would get sick, would make sure they got taken care of, but when I would get sick would “forget” to take care of me or suddenly get “upid” about it.  I do that now… lol, when things are “happening” to others (brought to mind, or hear of a need, or get asked, or stumble upon a situation… etc.,), Reiki turns on, kicks in and goes to it, at times my whole body emanates it and I get a “rush of flush”  (Kundalini Reiki – heap powerful stuff, woah man!) lol and when things are swirling round me or something is amiss… “duuuuh” hits me and well “me forgets!”  fortunately my Reiki Master, and Reiki friends/associates/Dear Hearts, come to the rescue and send it to me!  For instance, last week my right leg was going into cellulites and within a couple of days when I woke up it was gone, so Thank You!!! Whome ever picked up on that need….. the prayer warriors also helped on that one too!  So tytytytytytytytyty my Dear <3 Hearts for holding me up!  lmho (laugh my hiney off *wink*)  “This” was running through my head as I tried to fall asleep… at first figured would just rest for a couple of hours then get up and tend to Rose (my sweet sis-in-law… member named her that.. eheeheeeheehehe easier to type instead of sweet sis-in-law… faster! Ahaahahahahaaa!) before I knew it Punkin (Mom’s dog) was using my head as a pillow, lol, and I stirred… it was 11:00 a.m.!  Wow, got some a lil bit of rest.  So bounded up… well drug out bed and tried to orient and start “counting” when is Rose due for meds… brushed teeth, went to grab some coffee and the day started.

While I was pondering if I should write this “loonicy” down, it came to me, thank you dear sweet <3 Angels, that yes… need to and update my blog.  As this is my “live” journal so to speak of.  lol, when I moved here to “OK land” my daily journal writing came to an abrupt halt due to Dad’s care, I would start an entry and the bell would ring or it would be time for meds, breathing treatment… etc., feed, water dogs (not the planted ones! lol!!!) and quickly the journaling got dropped.  And I missed it terribly; it has kept me “sane” over the years.  Now… since I want to keep my beloved family and friends in the know, and keep me sane… this is working… well sort of?  ahaahaaaa! 

Anywho.osen! This entry is a snap shot, but more importantly… it is communication.  When I sent out the mass email, (do not like those, they can be “impersonal”) but I value each and every one of you.  For whatever reason all of you have been brought into my life at some point and there is always a reason “Why” things happen, (there are no coincidences!) people are brought together, and why some relationships last, no matter what or why… I realize a “friendship” with me is “trying” as I can be a flake… (caused by bouts of depression from having fibromyalgia, I retreat inwards) and withdraw all communications because “I do not deserve friends.”  This is a lil lie that resounds in my head harshly, so it takes me a little bit to work through that period where I eventually “snap out of it.” Sometimes I feel like my “tin foil” is a lil loose! lol, and not honed into the “Home Planet!” ahaahaaa so… when I “lapse” that is part of the reason, the other, which is most of the time, is I am not a good “keep in touch” type personage. (note sent out a couple of days ago)

So… there you have it… as said before, everything happens for a reason, no coincidences and this experience with Rose, Mom, my Bro and I are happening for a reason.  Dad and that experience paved the way to prepare both Mom and I for this, and this is preparing her and I both for something else… what? We do not know, but am sure it will be “interesting” and “enriching” for all things work for “the Big Kahuna’s Glory” and he guides us and send us assistance! (so grateful for His Angels, Spirit and guides!!!)  I have blathered on loooooooong enough, need to jet as its about dinner time, (well lunch for me!  lol) and the girls want “breakfast” for dinner!  ROFL!!!  eheeheeee  so need to get off of here with this update so can get “scrambling!”  Also, some meds came in today for Rose... so we are back on schedule and tonight/a.m. will be much better.  She had called her Idaho physician explaiing what was going on and they gave her enough to last till she gets a Doctor here!  Thank goodness and Thank you "Big Kahuna" upstairs!!! He does look out for us all!

Take care and have a most Blessed day!
^j^  Jeannine  ^j^

!o.o! Schedules !o.o!

Per last post, “officially” on summer break and well….. it has been “insane!”  Will go into that here in a bit.  My original intention to post once a week…  :?  well, time flies *cough*      lol, especially when one is having fun!    In between reconstructing a web page for a social network site I help out with… [ P.A.L. Page ], trying to learn CSS, playing in a tournament, being a dog sitter, trying to find job resumes/history (would like a part time job…  :?), refilling the tea, and….. well the list is and will go on, has been rearranged, revamped imploded… “?” (lost count, many time! Ahaahaaaa)  “Time” it seems has gotten away from me, yet again!  PLUS our family, bless us everyone!, is undergoing another “emergency” or as some are lo.oking at it, another “test.”  (will go there later! )  So my once a week post attempt got a tab bit side tracked…. hopefully “Saturdays” will be a good day to do this… or whenever? eheeheeee only time will tell 


Since the last post, weather wise, Oklahoma has had NO shortage of interesting atmospheric wonders happening.    From aggressive snowballs falling from the sky, to really “windy” days, to the suffocating humidity, OK’s weather constantly changes and always fascinates me!  lol!    An update on Kat’s friend, who lost her childhood friend in the May tornado, her three children survived, thank goodness and last I hear one of the boys was still in intensive care.  The two boys were tossed up into trees, and their grandfather and a passerby got them out.  Their little sister was near them, at the base of the tree where they were found.  Their mother, unfortunately did not survive the toss… they lived in a mobile home.  (A dangerous combo in “windy” conditions)  The community where they lived surrounded them with love, generosity and TLC!  They put on an event to help raise money for the lil ones care, as initially all three were in I.C.U. for a few days, it is a miracle they survived… period!  Blessings go out to them and theirs. 

Not long after that, not quite two weeks and well… my heart got to race a bit.  Mom had gone off to Idaho to visit my brother and his wife for a lil “vacation.”  Was so glad she finally made plans to “get out of Dodge” for a bit.  Sunday, May 16th, Kathryne was already at work and as I started to putter around, got that “feeling” climbing over me… the “OK weather is gonna get dicey feeling.    So I flipped on the T.V. and it was on a weather alert, so I knew it was going to be an interesting afternoon.  End result, Kat’s car looked like it was driven through a golf driving range, her front windshield looked like it had a base ball bat taken to it, her back windshield was shattered (the only thing keeping it in tack was the tinting) both side mirrors obliterated, standing water and hail balls were in the back floor board and seat, head lights and tail lights were broken, and the frame was grossly pitted.  When I saw her drive up… my jaw dropped to the pavement, almost literally!  I hugged her really tight whispering “Thank You Dear Beloved Creator for keeping my kidd safe during this storm!” over and over!  Thankfully her schedule was different and she was indoors at the time, helplessly watching as her car got pummeled!  The rain and hail came down so fast, it was just below need deep water for a bit, the new got a shot of her wading in it as she looked at her car after the onslaught!  Talk about feeling helpless!  All I could do was send out there… “Please take care of the kidd and protect her and those around her.”  Wish I had pictures to post, it was incredible.  So… with the evening forecast pending with more sever weather, we took card board, plastic trash bags and duck tape to minimize more water… which, come to find out, we did not need to do, as the insurance company sent out a tow truck the next day to gather her car.  Kat was a bit beside herself… I cannot imagine why… for the life of me :?  Seriously?!?  Lol, because she was heading out of town Wednesday for her vacation!  We found out just before she came home that her car would be totaled… so she is carless at the moment.  Would rather have that than the alternative!
  When I drove her to work one day, the devastation in that area was astounding!  So the hidden blessings surrounding that day are so welcomed and we are extremely grateful for!



Now after the kidd’s ordeal… Mom’s visit was going well in Idaho, but during her time there my sister-in-law fell ill and had to be taken to the emergency room.  Her health has been declining rapidly over the last 3-5 months, which mom was aware of before she went, and knew it might be an “interesting” visit.  Mom came home… but made the decision to return to Idaho to help with my sister-in-law, upon my brother’s request.  As we discussed these events that were unfolding, she decided to go and stay for six weeks.  She really felt the “call” to go help and try to do her best, and help my sister-in-law.  Fully understanding this, as I experienced the same thing when Dad got sick, I supported her decision, but had concerns.  Mom has “care-giving” in her blood, and she is an excellent caregiver… BUT… she has a tendency to throw herself into that position so much she forgets to take care of her and will get run down to the point she cannot function.  (my concern… via firsthand experience!)  So she was here long enough to get laundry done, take care of some things and then she headed back.  Fortunately, with me being here, her dogs would not have to be boarded and thus… my “official” but “unofficial” job of the dog sitter continued or, started or….. well go ahead, pick one!  :)   She had been there… if I remember a lil over a week and they had started talking about trying to find her additional help… possibly here in Oklahoma, in Tulsa.  On the 19th of May, my email produced a new flight itinerary and an email with “I’m coming home” in it, with an “I’ll explain later.” note.  Mom got home on Saturday, May 29th, with my brother and his wife leaving via car on May 31st to arrive in Oklahoma on June 1st.  They would pile back into a car on June 2nd, with my Mom included and head to Tulsa, Oklahoma, where she would stay for at least three weeks, if not more. 

During all of this, I finished school… (previous post) which included finals, etc… completed FAFSA for the fall, watered dogs, took a lil brain break and played games on sites avoided while in school, tried to reconstruct a web page, fed dogs,  cracked open a book or two on CSS, started a tournament, broke up the occasional “dog fights,” fed kid here and there,  got the web page somewhat reconstructed, fed dogs again, found a nifty CSS generator, watered the dogs, started the tutorial for the CSS generator, read more in the CSS books, played Yooyu Ball (tournament am in… YES! am a “closet” Neopian! -.- and proud of it!  Haha!) fed the dogs again… funny they need that daily!  0.0  Considered rearranging my site… imploding it completely and “reconstructing it” (changing content… etc.,)  watered dogs sum more, played with them too! Kept thinking need to update this blog… fed dogs AGAIN! -.-  Took on another project, that hopefully might pan into a “job” that I can work on while in school and would greatly help me with “hands on experience”…  fed dogs again, resupplied the tea, wondering if the weather is going to get “dicey” later today? Trying to pick out a yarn color to knit my sis-in-law a pair of socks (sent her a pair and she requested another pair *smiley hugs*) am enjoying my summer “break” and thankful that did not consider taking summer classes, as there would be noooooooooo way I could have crammed in a semesters worth of studies into one summer with all that is “not” going on?  *phew*  gut instincts do serve me well!!!  ahaahaaaa!  Greatful dogs are taking a nap right now! (we have added an additional one… to my “dog sitting” my brother and sis-in-law brought there lil poochie)  so, are my days full?  hmmmm I was thinking a couple of weeks ago I might run out of things to do… :?  Yeah right!  Not!  lol or lmao better yet… ROFLroflROFL, probably not a good idea, too much dog hair on carpet!  *grimace!*  

Nutshell links:  hahaha  here are some of the things mentioned in above links that am doing or working on…

Web page working on for the guild I am in on Neopets:  P.A.L. Page
This page has undergone a few transitions, this being the most recent. The coding is CSS, which I am in the process of learning and the gal that made this... well... am studying her coding.  I did "tweek" the page a bit, added a 4th collum and am working on rebuilding the smilies.  Got this far before the tournament started and will get it finished before school starts in the fall.  My "ultimate goal is to work up original CSS coding... well it is a goal.
If you would like to join go here:  [dolphin_dreamzsz ] and look me up!  Most likely I will be playing YYB (Yooyu Ball) and will see your message (Neomail)

Project working on:  [ link to follow ]  it is in the “developing” stages right now.  (working up coding)  Will put up a before and after link eventually.

New site found that am having fun on, come join me and Darnel:

!o.o!  OH!  Did manage to get some lil biddy smilies made up!!!  Intergrating them in the post... well not working out  :?  hmmmmmmmm... going to have to "play" with them.  Here are a couple...